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By daily dying, I have come to be.
— Theodore Roethke
poet, writer, teacher
1908 – 1963
By daily dying, I have come to be.
In spite of all the paraphernalia for keeping things together, how haphazard life is, and the judgments of time.
What is madness but nobility of the soul at odds with circumstance.
My secrets cry aloud. My love, with no disguise.
My truths are all foreknown, With nakedness my shield.
The light comes brighter from the east; the caw Of restive crows is sharper on the ear.
My own agonies, which I once thought comic, have become more terrible with the passing of time.
And soon a branch, part of a hidden scene,And young shoots spread upon our inner world.
Was it my time for writing poems about McCarthy or my time for sending out fresh salmon or the time of playing happy telephone or my time for dictating memoranda about what's wrong with America?... or my time for crying.
He loops in crazy figures half the night When mice with wings can wear a human face.
Those who are willing to be vulnerable move among mysteries.
This urge, wrestle, resurrection of dry sticks,Rose on such lopped limbs to a new life?
Nothing would sleep in that cellar, dank as a ditch
Nothing would give up life:Even the dirt kept breathing a small breath.
I always felt mean, jogging back over the logging road, As if I had committed, against the whole scheme of life, a desecration.
Like witches they flew along rows,They trellised the sun; they plotted for more than themselves.
The whiskey on your breathSuch waltzing was not easy.
Art is the means we have of undoing the damage of haste. It's what everything else isn't.
Over the gulfs of dreamDeep in the brain, far back.
I study the lives on a leaf: the littleSleepers, numb nudgers in cold dimensions.
At Woodlawn I Heard the dead cry: Toads brooding wells.
I shook the softening chalk of my bones,This is my hard time.
The salt said, look by the sea, In the kingdom of bang and blab.
Who stunned the dirt into noise?Nibble again, fish nerves.
Goodbye, goodbye, old stones, the time-order is going,I run, I run to the whistle of money.
The mind moved, not alone, Through the clear air, in the silence.
A lively understandable spiritWait.
I saw the separateness of all things!The weeds believed me, and the nesting birds.
The wind sharpened itself on a rock; A voice sang:
Mother of quartz, your words writhe into my ear. Renew the light, lewd whisper.
My Papa's Waltz:
The wasp waits.The redeemer comes a dark way.
Death was not. I lived in a simple drowse:And love, love sang toward.
To stare into the after-light, the glitter left on the lake's surface,To know that light falls and fills, often without our knowing.
I'll seek my own meekness.The nest denies.
Bless me and the maze I'm in!Hello, thingy spirit.
Beginnings start without shade,Behold, in the lout's eye, love.
I take this cadence from a man named Yeats:That came to be the bears and Yeats would know.
Dante attained the purgatorial hill,Summon a vision and declare it pure.
What's madness but nobility of soul
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow. I learn by going where I have to go.
Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how? I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
Great Nature has another thing to do And, lovely, learn by going where to go.
This shaking keeps me steady. I should know. I learn by going where I have to go.
I knew a woman, lovely in her bones, The shapes a bright container can contain!
Let seed be grass, and grass turn into hay: (I measure time by how a body sways.)
The night wind rises. Does my father live?Love alters all. Unblood my instinct, love.
I lived with deep roots once:Of lichen around stones?
The moon draws back its waters from the shore.Or listen into silence, like a god.
How can I rest in the days of my slowness?I need an old crone's knowing.
I have gone into the waste lonely placesBehind the eye.
Too much reality can be a dazzle, a surfeit; Too close immediacy an exhaustion
A terrible violence of creation, A sunlit silence.
Being, not doing, is my first joy.
To whom does this terrace belong? —Older than I, or the cockroach.
Pain wanders through my bones like a lost fire;What burns me now? Desire, desire, desire.
I bleed my bones, their marrow to bestowUpon that God who knows what I would know.
Let others probe the mystery if they can. The right thing happens to the happy man.
God bless the roots! — Body and soul are one!The right thing happens to the happy man.
Poetry is not a mere shuffling of dead words or even a corralling of live ones. (p. 89)
In our age, if a boy or girl is untalented, the odds are in favor of their thinking they want to write. (p. 89)
There's an element of desperation in the insistence of the graduate student's respect for knowledge — as opposed to wisdom. (p. 95)
The poem, even a short time after being written, seems no miracle; unwritten, it seems something beyond the capacity of the gods.
Art is the means we have of undoing the damage of haste. It's what everything else isn't.
You can't make poetry simply by avoiding clichés.
There's a point where plainness is no longer a virtue, when it becomes excessively bald, wrenched.
You must believe: a poem is a holy thing — a good poem, that is.
Yet for this we travelledIn a country of bright stone.
What we need is more people who specialize in the impossible.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
