The message I got from my record label at the time — and this was on purpose — was that I wasn't selling enough. Even when the single was a hit, it wasn't enough of a hit — I never got to number 1; I only got to number 5. And MTV didn't like the first video for the song, and we had to do another one. So I never felt anything except how bad I was and like, "Oh, shame on you!"
Damn I wish I was your loverMake sure you are smiling and warm.
I am everythingFree your mind and you won't feel ashamed.
Shucks, for me there is no otherI can't imagine I'll grow out of it.
I'm dancing in the shadows of life Right beside you always.
It felt like spring time on this February morningIn a courtyard birds were singing your praise...
As I lay me down to sleepAnd I will wake up happy
It's not too near for meWhen the sun comes out again.
This documentary has lifted the lid off a coffin, and now I'm looking at stuff that I didn't know was there.
So many people are throwing up their hands because the world has gotten so dark, but I went against the current and I actually found more light and positive energy. That was a great feeling.
The reality is that we're all in the wilderness, and we have to survive on our own, and things constantly change and if we don't accept that, then we're just trying to fool ourselves. But the beauty of wilderness is that sometimes you can wake up in the morning and feel so sweet and whole.
I used to be more dogmatic, more disciplined and segregated about my time to work; now I have to jump from one song to another, or score a scene in a movie, then get out the door for a performance at a moment's notice. The illusion of control over my schedule is totally obsolete. There is no way to say, "I can't do that right now." It's "Yes, thank you for the opportunity, whatever it takes to get the music out there."