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I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
— Philip Larkin
journalist, poet, librarian, novelist, writer, music journalist, music critic, critic
1922 – 1985
I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
Morning, noon & bloody night,
Poetry is an affair of sanity, of seeing things as they are, to recreate the familiar, eternalizing the poet's own perception in unique and original verbal form.
What was the rock my gliding childhood struck, / And what bright unreal path has led me here?
Life and literature is a question of what one thrills to, and further than that no man shall ever go without putting his foot in a turd.
If we seriously contemplate life it appears an agony too great to be supported, but for the most part our minds gloss such things over & until the ice finally lets us through we skate about merrily enough. Most people, I'm convinced, don't think about life at all. They grab what they think they want and the subsequent consequences keep them busy in an endless chain till they're carried out feet first.
to start at a new place is always to feel incompetent & unwanted.
Rather than words comes the thought of high windows:
You can look out of your life like a train & see what you're heading for, but you can't stop the train.
I never think of poetry or the poetry scene, only separate poems written by individuals.
The first day after a death, the new absence While there is still time.
Deprivation is for me what daffodils were for Wordsworth.
But, o, photography! as no art is,Like washing-lines, and Hall's-Distemper boards
And I, whose childhoodAnd starts to be happy.
Only one ship is seeking us, a black-No waters breed or break.
Our almost-instinct almost true:What will survive of us is love.
The glare of that much-mentioned brilliance, love,It had not done so then, and could not now.
Get stewed:Books are a load of crap.
Never such innocence,Never such innocence again.
They fuck you up, your mum and dad. And add some extra, just for you.
But they were fucked up in their turn And half at one another's throats.
Man hands on misery to man. And don't have any kids yourself.
What do they think has happened, the old fools,
Most things may never happen: this one will.
Always too eager for the future, we
Days
Time has transfigured them into
Since the majority of me
Uncontradicting solitude
I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
Time has transfigured them into
So many things I had thought forgotten
I am always trying to 'preserve' things by getting other people to read what I have written, and feel what I felt.
Only in books the flat and final happens,
What will survive of us is love.
Always too eager for the future, we
I feel the only thing you can do about life is to preserve it, by art if you're an artist, by children if you're not.
Time has transfigured them into
Loneliness clarifies. Here silence stands
They say eyes clear with age.
I'm terrified of the thought of time passing (or whatever is meant by that phrase) whether I 'do' anything or not. In a way I may believe, deep down, that doing nothing acts as a brake on 'time's - it doesn't of course. It merely adds the torment of having done nothing, when the time comes when it really doesn't matter if you've done anything or not.
Poetry is nobody’s business except the poet’s, and everybody else can fuck off.
