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Walk with me world, upon my right hand walk, before the purpose of speech is gone.
— Conrad Aiken
Walk with me world, upon my right hand walk, before the purpose of speech is gone.
Separate we come and separate we go, And this, be it known, is all that we know.
Music I heard with you was more than music,All that was once so beautiful is dead.
My heart has become as hard as a city street,They ring like the hooves of time.
My heart is torn with the sound of raucous voices,Shoot arrows into my heart.
O sweet clean earth, from whom the green blade cometh!Sending up grass and blossoms to the sky.
All lovely things will have an ending,Will beg a penny by and by.
Come back, true love! Sweet youth, return!—And the wild days set true hearts bleeding.
The wandering one, the inquisitive dreamer of dreams,And lifts his palms for the first cold ghost of rain.
'I will ask them all, I will ask them all their dreams,Or as the numberless voices of long-drawn rains.
We flow, we descend, we turn . . . and the eternal dreamerMoves among us like light, like evening air . . .
Our hands are hot and raw with the stones we have laid,We have built a city of towers.
What did we build it for? Was it all a dream? . . .And hew rock out of the earth, and build them again.
There, in the high bright window he dreams, and seesFrom wall to wall in the darkening of a cloud.
Before him, numberless lovers smiled and talked.And night came down again.
From high black walls, gleaming vaguely with rain,And some strange shadows threw.
From some, the light was scarcely more than a gloom:From some, a dazzling desire.
And there was one, beneath black eaves, who thought,As she blew out her light.
We were all born of flesh, in a flare of pain,We shall lie down again.
One of us sings in the street, and we listen to him;The house you lived in, the house that all of us know.
And we recall, with a gleaming stab of sadness,Someone cries in the forest, and someone kills.
And, growing tired, we turn aside at last,Of love or lust or beauty or death or crime.
Over the darkened city, the city of towers,With a mournful sound down rain-dark walls.
A chorus of elfin voices blowing about meI run among them, reach out vain hands, and drown.
'I am the one who stood beside you and smiled,'I am the one who loved you but did not dare.'
'I am the one you saw to-day, who fellInvisible, in a cloud of secret pain.'
Weave, weave, weave, you streaks of rain!Thousands of voices weave in the rain.
My veins are afire with music,I shall dream to her secret heart tonight...
'I bound her to me in all soft ways,There is no use: we cry: and are not heard.
The wind shrieks, the wind grieves;And desires to stir, to resist a ghost of pain.
We reach vague-gesturing hands, we lift our heads,Our curious separate ways through life and death.
We rub the darkness from our eyes,Compassionate over our towers bending.
Each gleaming point of light is like a seedEach hurrying face records its strange desires.
Something had changed—but it was not the street—The street was just the same—it was himself.
He would not yield, he thought, and walk more slowly,Taking his ease . . .
Was forty, then, too old for work like this?But dreams had meanings.
His thoughts were blown and scattered like leaves;Because he would not need it?
I walk in a cloud of wonder; I am glad.We loiter, dreaming together, along the street.
Lovers walk in the noontime by that fountain.And soon the pond must freeze.
Time is a dream, he thinks, a destroying dream;Even a dream grows grey at last and falls.
Death is a meeting place of sea and sea.
Two lovers, here at the corner, by the steeple,They drift from wall to wall, from tree to tree.
'One white rose . . . or is it pink, to-day?'Dreaming they stand, dreaming they walk.
Two lovers move in the crowd like a link of music,We tremble like wind-blown grass.
What was this dream we had, a dream of music,The red sun drops, the walls grow grey.
The young boy whistles, hurrying down the street,And one goes out to death.
In one room, silently, lover looks upon lover,And thinks the air is fire.
As darkness fallsThrough half-lit halls which reach no end.
The poet walked alone in a cold late rain,For his lover was dead, he never would love again.
'When you are dead your spirit will find my spirit,And then we shall die no more.'
Through soundless labyrinths of dream you pass,Or see a skeleton fall . . .
Let us retrace our steps: I have deceived you:Let us return, hear music, and forget . . .
The music ends. The screen grows dark. We hurryThe flutes are stilled, and a thousand dreams are stilled.
Once I loved, and she I loved was darkened.The doors of night are closed. We go our ways.
In the mazes of loitering people, the watchful and furtive,I suddenly face you
I love you, what star do you live on?
And the shadows of tree-trunks and shadows of leavesTo divide us forever.
Let us describe the evening as it is:— And strangle it, and with it, rhetoric.
Whitman had a profound influence on me. … He was useful to me in the perfection of form, as a sort of compromise between the strict and the free.
We developed a shorthand language of our own which we fell into for the rest of our lives whenever we met, no holds barred — all a matter of past reference, a common language, but basically affection, along with humor, and appreciation of each other’s minds, and of Krazy Kat . Faced with England, and the New World, and Freud and all, we always managed to relax, and go back to the kidding, and bad punning, and drinking, to the end. It really was marvelous.
I do believe in this evolution of consciousness as the only thing which we can embark on, or in fact, willy-nilly, are embarked on; and along with that will go the spiritual discoveries and, I feel, the inexhaustible wonder that one feels, that opens more and more the more you know. It’s simply that this increasing knowledge constantly enlarges your kingdom and the capacity for admiring and loving the universe.
A small but brilliant advance made today by someone’s awareness may for the moment reach a very small audience, but insofar as it’s valid and beautiful, it will make its way and become part of the whole world of consciousness. So in that sense it’s all working toward this huge audience, and all working toward a better man.
